“It is when we try to make our will conform with God’s that we begin to use it rightly. To all of us, this was the most wonderful revelation. Our whole trouble had been the misuse of willpower. We had tried to bombard our problems with it instead of attempting to bring it into agreement with God’s intention for us.” (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions pg. 40)
This is another way of saying we like to run our own lives with our own will, not God’s. We think we know what’s best for our mind, body and spirit but we don’t. Then when everything gets messed up, we keep the addictive or dysfunctional cycle going by trying to fix things with another one of our brilliant ideas. It’s amazing how we can completely complicate our life, and then believe (in our infinite wisdom) that we know how to make it right.
There’s one who does know: GOD. We can achieve victory over our dysfunction when we surrender our will for His in every area of our life; or we at least make an honest effort every single day.
He’s the one patiently waiting when we’re all out of ideas and we finally see how our will and our problems are one and the same.
“Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, for in You do I trust; Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You.” (Psalm 143:8)