Choices

Jodie Stevens

Several years ago I came home in tears, feeling hopeless and defeated after getting another traffic ticket following a road rage incident.

“I don’t know what to do” I said to my husband “I give up!”

“What lane were you in?” He asked.

“The Fast Lane,” I said.

“Why don’t you just move over,” He said.

Then he asked if I remembered how I got sober ten years ago. I thought about the choices I made back then, like asking for help and setting boundaries.

“Why don’t you just move over?”

You see, I’d been in the ‘fast lane’ in one way or for most of my life and it wasn’t a safe place for me to be.

Many of the ‘indulgences’ other people take advantage of every day, I could not afford. And I certainly was never going to control how they acted. But I could control me. I could slow down. I could choose another lane.

It always comes back to the serenity prayer for me: “God grant me the serenity to except the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”

Jodie Stevens

One Comment Add yours

  1. Rick Selling says:

    Not only have you learned to “move over”…it would seem you’re “movin’ on up”! Nice read.

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