“As an addict you’re craving something. You just get fixated on the wrong thing when really all along what you were fixated on and hungry for was God.”
His comments illustrated what I’d been doing the first 33 years of my life. Trying to fill a God-shaped hole.
He goes on to say:
“Sometimes an addiction, a distorted hunger for God, gets manifested on something else and it can redefine the way you live your life and it’s very oppressive.”
I can tell you from my own experience, the reason it can define or redefine the way you live your life is because an addiction is a love affair between the addict and his drug of choice.
An addiction is usually defined as a compulsive use of a harmful substance like drugs, alcohol, gambling or the Internet. But it can also be an unhealthy obsession with gossip, drama, fear, or the need to be the center of attention.
Everything we do becomes about satisfying this craving. Consequently, our lives would be totally different if we weren’t chasing after our addiction.
The reason it’s oppressive is because it never satisfies. In fact, the need intensifies and we begin to crave it more and more. That’s called tolerance.
It oppresses because the longer we are in bondage to it, the longer it takes to recover. 10 years of trouble takes less time to remedy than 20, 30, or 40 years of trouble.
Proverbs 23: 31-32 says:
“Do not gaze at wine when it is red, when it sparkles in the cup. When it goes down smoothly! In the end it bites like a snake and poisons like a viper.”
Alcoholics Anonymous founder Bill Wilson knew from his own experience that a shift comes when addiction gives way to complete enslavement and there is no turning back without the help of God.
Which is why Step Two in the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous reads:
“Came to believe that only a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
Yes, an addiction can define your life, but only if you let it.